Inspired by Kim
I hope I will stick to this… Might help me to set some of my thoughts straight.
I stopped hating my body, which is a good thing. Not that I started loving it, but at least the body and I are on a way to accept each other. Plus I realized I can change the body, and that only I can do it, nobody else.
What I really hate about myself is my lack of confidence. I would love to be more at ease with me, who I am and what I am. I know that most people think I am a really confident person, but frankly, I am not. I keep on wondering why people like me, why I have friends as good as I have.
Every action is followed by a minute of insecurity. “Did I do this right? Shouldn’t I have it this way or that way?”
I NEVER try to see other people’s mistakes, I am always pretty sure it’s me that made that mistake. A guy not calling back? Oh well, it’s not him being an idiot, its pretty much me, because I probably said/did something wrong. Oh and why should he call back? I am not attractive, I am not very clever, I wouldn’t call me either. Simple as that.
Being talked to rudly? Not the other person’s fault, it’s because I probably caused that kind of behaviour in the first place by something I did.
I am not good with critique. Not because I think that I do everything right and shouldn’t be critizised. Simply because I almost instantly think “Yes, right, it’s because I suck.” This is part of me and I know I should change it. Its hard, though. and I would love to find a way out of that vicious circle.
Any advice, apart from writing down what I like about myself? Because that is not much…
Maybe find somebody in need and do something nice for him/her and then keep telling yourself what good you did.
Sorry I don’t have a better advise because I know how hard it is to change one’s view of oneself even though if people see you completely different…
But I am the same, always looking for my mistakes…
first off yay for starting the meme
also, a therapist told a good friend of mine once to write down three things she did well that day every night before she went to sleep. she had a tendency to focus on the things she didn’t do that well and would forget about the things she did well. doesn’t have to be anything huge, either. small things like “made coffee for the whole crew” are perfectly fine. that’ll help you focus on all the great things you do every day and are good at. i’m sure there’s tons of those *hugs*