Inspired by Kim
I hope I will stick to this… Might help me to set some of my thoughts straight.
I stopped hating my body, which is a good thing. Not that I started loving it, but at least the body and I are on a way to accept each other. Plus I realized I can change the body, and that only I can do it, nobody else.
What I really hate about myself is my lack of confidence. I would love to be more at ease with me, who I am and what I am. I know that most people think I am a really confident person, but frankly, I am not. I keep on wondering why people like me, why I have friends as good as I have.
Every action is followed by a minute of insecurity. “Did I do this right? Shouldn’t I have it this way or that way?”
I NEVER try to see other people’s mistakes, I am always pretty sure it’s me that made that mistake. A guy not calling back? Oh well, it’s not him being an idiot, its pretty much me, because I probably said/did something wrong. Oh and why should he call back? I am not attractive, I am not very clever, I wouldn’t call me either. Simple as that.
Being talked to rudly? Not the other person’s fault, it’s because I probably caused that kind of behaviour in the first place by something I did.
I am not good with critique. Not because I think that I do everything right and shouldn’t be critizised. Simply because I almost instantly think “Yes, right, it’s because I suck.” This is part of me and I know I should change it. Its hard, though. and I would love to find a way out of that vicious circle.
Any advice, apart from writing down what I like about myself? Because that is not much…